Reflections of a Wrecked Man!

It happened on a Sunday in late August 2001. This empty, broken shell of a man responded to Gods call on my life! I said the words with tears streaming down my face, I am yours. With a fully surrendered heart I decided to take Jesus up on His invitation to follow Him. I was wrecked! Years later, I have found myself reflecting on my life, evaluating my journey with the Lord and any sin I had struggled with.

Recently, I often find myself in this place of reflection. Thank you, Lord. Thank you for this life I am so undeserving of. Thank you for the blessings. Thank you for the struggles as I tearfully remember them in my mind. Then I remember how I grew in those seasons. I grew in areas I didn’t know I needed growth. I’m thankful for them. But honestly, I am thankful many of them are behind me and I have overcome them through Christ! They are over.

When you start this journey, it’s an exciting, encouraging walk of growth and stretching and healing. And then, without even realizing it, you wake up one morning and you’ve become comfortable in the everyday. I’m thankful for my AC, my house, my vehicles with no payments, my kind and non-needy friends, my healthy kids, my hard-working and beautiful wife and the overall ease of my life.

But I must be honest. My easy life is not a reflection of the world. Children are dying from lack of food, shelter or basic medical services. Women are enslaved in sex trade. Marriages and families are falling apart. People are going to bed hungry. Brothers and sisters are far from the Lord. But I am comfortable. I can’t see it. After all, it’s not me. I feel unmoved. It’s not my job. My heart can be detached from those problems that don’t live in my backyard. So I will ask God to give me His eyes to view this world. To be broken by the things that break His heart. But will I listen? Will I see when He does? Or will I intentionally not make eye contact and walk into Walmart or Rural King.

What we pray may come with a cost, but what if we were okay with that? What if we lived true life abandonment and asked God to wreck us? Knowing that it will come with a cost. We will hurt and feel pain, but we will survive and that process is good because it is the Lord’s refinement of our character. So my challenge to you…to us, is to pray this prayer with all sincerity.

“Lord, wreck me for the things that wreck you. If wrecking me means removing or challenging all that I hold most dear, but in the end I am closer to you, do it. Wreck me.

If wrecking me means my life would bring you glory, wreck me. Whatever the cost Lord, wreck me. Whatever wrecks you, wreck me.”

Just like the parable in Matthew 25:14-30, our Master has entrusted us with His talents. Not only does God decide how many talents we each get, He also equips, impassions and prepares us for the work. All we need to do is be faithful to do it.

God didn’t create us all the same, so there is not one solution. What might wreck you, may be different than what God will stir to wreck another. Regardless, God wants to invite us in on being apart of the work He’s already doing. What wrecks you?

The lost

The fatherless

The hungry

The unloved

The widow

The abused

The lonely

Your neighbor

Your city

The list is endless…

Maybe it’s a sin in your own life. Maybe you need to be wrecked first by Holiness because of a sin that entangles you before you can be wrecked beyond yourself.

Can I assure you of one thing? Most of us won’t have to go far to find what God has prepared us to do. Chances are there’s a relationship or opportunity that’s already presented itself. Are we willing?

I am not proposing we do more to busy ourselves; I am proposing we live our lives differently. We may need to say no to something great to open up margin in our lives to do what God created us to do.

I, therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called. Eph 4:1

Christ gave his life. He died a painful death. He was so wrecked over our separation from the Father that He gave His life. Willingly. Without hesitation. Jesus gave His life away so we would not have to know a life separated from Him. And what does He desire in response? For us to love Him and love others. (Luke 10: 25-27)

I say these words with blind trust and a confident heart, uncertain of the potential cost. Knowing that this might challenge my comfort, my ease and my security. May we be followers that refuse to look the other way and fights against living as detached hearts to the things around us that break the Lord’s heart. May we BE BRAVE and ask together for the Lord to wreck us for the next generation.

For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. Eph 2:10

In Him always,
Christopher E. Hanson
Evangelism Ministry Leader
NCWC

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